Since the new year has started, I’ve gone hard in terms of changing my life. I have set many goals, and I’ve already accomplished one of them.
I am the hero of my own story. Everyone is the hero of their own story, no matter how terrible a person they might be.
In the archetypal hero’s journey the hero begins in the ordinary world, the average day-to-day minutia where the hero has been living uncomfortably thus far. The hero feels a desire either to leave or a simple lack of belonging.
The next step is the Call to Adventure.
Something shakes up the situation, either from external pressures or from something rising up from deep within, so the hero must face the beginnings of change.
2016 was my call to adventure.
All the drama aside, I was discussing with one of my friends how I am usually most motivated when I’m angry. He told me that probably wasn’t healthy.
It probably isn’t.
However, I’ve found in my case that my anger often buoys a certain sense of empowerment and it actually helps me accomplish certain things I have been procrastinating. It also makes me braver and less afraid of failure. So really, is anger always negative? (more…)
Today my friend informed me that he felt “2017 is going really well so far”. Granted, three days in and for him I suppose it is. I, however, beg to differ based on the political atmosphere of our country and on a more petty level… the state of my life.
Granted, I suppose I feel this way every year. Why would this be any different?
I just found out that my friend who I’d been heavily crushing on asked out my other friend… who he also knew I liked. It’s like a messed up love triangle that is pretty much just a “V” shape with some one-sided arrows. I mean, he made it clear he didn’t like me- but he didn’t even give me a week to recover before asking out my friend- who has been my girl-crush since college- who he knew I liked. (Sounds like an episode of Degrassi…)
OK, OK… I understand he doesn’t owe me anything. I just found the whole thing awfully shady and not… nice?
Though, I suppose I’m projecting many of my other issues onto this stupid situation. It’s a new year so it’s time to wash my hands of this. And what’s a better way then writing about my feelings and making a bunch of goals I know will lose steam halfway through January? (more…)